having a baby

19 weeks, 6 days


It's A Boy!!!
I've never been so happy!
He is healthy and all of his organs
are developed and working great!
He wiggles around and stretches
out his legs! It was amazing!
Mommy already loves her little prince:)

19 weeks, 5 days

Tomorrow is the big day!! Boy or Girl? My appt is at 8 in the morning and I'm going with my mom and step-mom, Audrey. I am soooo excited! We're going to Precision Imaging to get the full on sonogram. I'm so nervous. My guts tell me it's a boy, but I think I want a girl. But then I want a boy too. It doesn't matter I just can't wait! My sister Becca asked me the other day, "Taci, (she can't say Kaci) can you have a girl and a boy? I want a girl and a boy." She makes me laugh. She is probably more excited than anyone for this new baby. All I hear all day is "Taci, I got a ball for your baby and me." "Is your baby tired?" "What is your baby saying right now?" "Can the doctor take out your baby now?" She cracks me up! Well, I have to get some sleep for the big day! Whoo hoo!

18 weeks, 6 days

So everyone's leaving to college soon:( All my friends are packing up to go far away to have the time of their lives. While I'm stuck here at the beautiful University of Modesto, bagging groceries for old snobby people, oh yeah, with a huge pot belly. Urgh!! I'm so sad. It was my dream to go far to college. I hate seeing college football games on TV, just thinking that I could be there. Cal Poly move in day is in 2 days. It was marked on all my calendars. I had to cross out "Kaci leaves for college!!" to put down "Kaci's OBGYN appt." I was at Target with my mom and saw all of the dorm decor. I would have loved to decorate my dorm and pack and get all organized for college. Instead, I bought some baby outfits. For some reason baby clothes always seem to make me happy:) I also got some coco butter lotion for my future stretch marks. Ew.

17 weeks, 3 days

Today was the first day of school. My class schedule consists of Ballet (I know, right?), Humanities, Political Science, Guidance 101, Math, and Theatre Production. I did it. I am officially a full-time student. It took so much work trying to get into all of these classes. But I stuck with it and got some classes. Even us pregnant girls can go to school! I'm finally relieved that I managed to become a full student:)

16 weeks, 4 days

Wow. So today I decided to take all of my sisters to the mall for lunch. As I held hands with my 3-year-old sister, Becca, we got in line for Hot Dog On a Stick. I looked to my left and had to double take who was walking toward me. The baby's dad, "Chuck" was coming straight my way. I looked up to make eye contact as he quickly looked down at the floor and brushed right by me. Honestly? Wow. I've never felt so low. How can he just walk right by the woman with his child in her belly! Omg! What is the world coming to? Anyways, I felt sick to my stomach. So much for craving a corn dog.

15 weeks, 5 days

Continuing the march towards normal proportions, baby's legs now outmeasure the arms. And, finally, all four limbs have functional joints. My baby is squirming and wiggling like crazy down in the womb, though I still can't feel the movements.

15 weeks, 4 days

Did I mention I'm extremely emotional? Last night I cried myself to sleep. Why me? Why? I worked so hard in high school. I never even got a C. I took extra classes, did extra-cirricular activities, and volunteered all over Modesto just to look good on a college application. I stayed up late doing homework and worked on projects for weeks. I did everything to the best I could. I tried so hard in high school, I really did. And what do kids work hard for in highschool for? To go to their dream college. Well I got into my dream college. Ten minutes from the beach in San Luis Obispo, voted the 8th best city to live in the U.S. I was finally living my lifelong dream and going straight to a 4 year university. But not anymore. Now I'm not even in school. This isn't in my life plans. I had my life all planned out. 4 years at Cal Poly, get my teaching credential, become a teacher, get married, buy a house, get a dog, and start the perfect family. But not anymore. I'm not even going to be a teacher anymore. They don't make enough money that I need for me and my baby. So plan B is nursing. Why me? I know kids my age who never did anything in high school? And are going to state schools. Kids who cheated their way through high school, got bad grades, and still are going to universities? Wow. Why! I'm so mad. I deserve to go to a nice college and live that college life everyone looks forward to living. I just cried all night thinking of everything I worked for seeming like it's going down the drain.

15 weeks, 2 days

Honestly? Sorry for this venting, but I'm so frustrated. For starters, I finally got to register at Modesto Junior College. After transfering all my information from Cal Poly to MJC, it was time to pick classes. I went online last night to pick a few. I need 12 units to be considered a full time student. So as I scrolled down the list of random classes, I noticed every class I need is full. Every single one. History & Math, full. English & Medical classes, full. All full. The only ones left are Agriculture Skills, Agriculture Special Training, Agriculture in California, Agriculture Terminology, I think you get the picture. Oh my gosh! I don't want to be an Ag kid, I want regular classes! Urgh! Oh and there's ballet. Ballet? Honestly? Fat girl trying to spin around in a tu tu? I don't think so. Urgh! So I kept scrolling and found a few classes that I don't need, but will take just to be a student. Prevention of Disease, Medical Assisting, and Dental Science. Random I know. So I registered for them. Sorry, you cannot take these classes without taking previous classes. URGHHH! So I have zero classes. Thanks MJC.

14 weeks, 6 days

Well, people are starting to notice. It seems like over-night I grew bigger and I can't suck it in any longer. It's time to let it loose and show my pooch. Oh, and my clothes don't fit! Oh my goodness. I try so hard to button my size 4 pants. Say goodbye size four, hello size forty. I have to rubberband my button on my pants for them to fit. My bras don't fit. Shirts feel super tight. I feel like I weigh 300 pounds. Everything takes so much energy to do and afterwards I feel exhausted. I mean, I love sleeping and all, but it's so time-consuming having to nap all the time and having to sit after standing for only 10 minutes. Work is getting harder and seems to get longer. I usually am full of energy at work, but lately I feel like I need a break every half hour. Everything seems like it takes so much to do so little. I hate the feeling of being exhausted. I honestly do nothing all day because I don't feel like getting ready. I sweat so easily. I am grumpy. I cry at everything. And I'm fat. I can't take this any longer!!

13 weeks, 3 days


So today was my second doctor's appointment! The wait was long again and I was finally seen. My weight: 140 pounds! Oh my goodness! I thought I was going to get another sonogram, but not this appointment. Instead, I got a full physical. The doctor rubbed some nasty jelly-like goo on my stomach and put a heart beat monitor on it. 156 beats per minute! It was loud so everyone could hear it. It was so real and I was so relieved to know Baby is doing good in there:) You still can't really tell I'm pregnant, it just looks like I'm chubby. But I've already been looking at nursery furniture and baby clothes:) I'm getting really excited about being a mom. It has always been my dream to be a mom, and no matter what the situation is, I'm happy. At first, I was so concerned what other people would think, that I'd forget to appreciate the fact that God has blessed me with a child. But I'm passed that stage now, and I am making this the best experience ever:]


12 weeks

Keep track of the size of my baby!
As I move into the second trimester, baby shifts into the growth and maturation stage. After weeks in the critical development stage, almost all of baby's systems are fully formed.

11 weeks

Fingers and toes are no longer webbed, and hair follicles, tooth buds and nail beds are forming -- setting up a significantly more attractive future.

10 weeks

With bones and cartilage starting to form and vital organs beginning to function, baby is making major progress. Body length will almost double in the next three weeks, and arm joints are now working. (Soon, legs will too.)

9 weeks, 3 days


Today was my first doctor's appointment! I was so nervous and excited at the same time! I didn't know what to expect. I walked in to see couples everywhere with ladies and their huge bellies. And here I was, walking in with my mom. I got into the room and met the nurse. She said to undress from the waist down and sit on this huge chair. How awkward! I was so nervous. The doctor finally came in and it was a man doctor. What! I didn't ask to see this guy! It turns out he was my doctor's replacement. Now this was going to be extra awkward. But the minute I saw my baby on the sonogram screen, everything the doctor was saying blurred away and all I was thinking was "wow." It was simply amazing. Baby was moving and moving and I could see it's heartbeat going a mile a minute. I never felt more like a mother, until that very second. He said everything looked great and I have never been happier:]

9 weeks, 1 day

Today, I'm in Oregon visiting family at my aunt's house for our annual Fourth of July get-together. I broke the news to my mom's side of the family as my Nana and Tia's were overwhelmed with joy that a new baby was going to join the family. It's starting to become easier telling family, because I know they will love and support me in any situation. I bought Baby it's first rattle of an elephant at the Oregon Zoo. The shock is wearing off and I'm beginning to look forward to being a mommy:]