22 weeks, 6 days

Today, I had another check-up appointment with my doctor. It wasn't the usual guy, it was a lady who I like much more. This time Edward went with me. We listened to the hearbeat (I always get emotional at that part) and she measured my belly. I weigh 148! Omg! I feel much bigger though. She said he was looking healthy and everything was going great. I decided not to take this test to check for down syndrome. It was my choice to not know. If anything is wrong with baby, God intended it, and I shouldn't be worried about anything. I'll love him no matter what more than anything and I feel it was better not knowing. But everything went great at the appointment! I really love being pregnant. I don't know why, but I just love it. Sometimes I hate how things are harder and more of a hassle, but overall, I love the feeling that I am carrying a human life. I guess only if you've been pregnant, you'd know what I mean. As for work, I am working A LOT. I am now saving money from every check and putting it into an account for Jake. Did I mention I'm set on the name Jake? I love it:) Middle name, still unsure but Jake is it for the first name. I'm feeling great, no sickness or anything. I just gotta start being active more so the birthing will go much better. Well, gotta go for now:)

21 weeks, 6 days

Tonight, my mom, Edward, and I went to this dinner banquet held at the Modesto Pregnancy Center. I didn't know what to expect, I just knew it was to benefit the Center. Modesto Pregnancy Center specializes in pregnancy tests, counseling, and overall help for teen moms in our community. They provide diapers, formula, and so much more for mothers in need. My mom felt we had to give back in some way. We attended the dinner and listened to very touching testimonies how the center has helped these young girls. One girl shared her story, saying abortion was the only thing on her mind when she found out she was pregnant at 17. She went to the center and in a matter of weeks they helped her change her mind to see that pregnancy is a beautiful thing and God doesn't want anyone's life cut short. It was so emotional hearing her struggles and how the center has been nothing but help to her. She brought up her precious baby boy and thanked the women working there for inspiring her to be a young mother regardless of how hard the situation is. I realized then how lucky I was to have the support I have at home. I sometimes take my family for granted, but tonight I realized that I have an amazing life and this baby will be a blessing to all of us, no matter what:)